d would let us join with them。 I thought they had a better chance than you； and I didn’t want to die； so I was going to join with them。 I thought they would be pleased if I brought them men to add to their ranks。 I thought they would be pleased with us if we could help them crush you。’
He burst suddenly in sobs。 ‘Oh； please； Mistress； I’m so sorry I thought to do you harm。 I wanted them to kill you。 Oh； please； Mistress； I’m so sorry I intended you harm。 Please； Mistress； tell me how I can gain your forgiveness。 I will do anything。 Please mand me and it will be done。 Please； Mistress； what do you wish of me？’
‘I wish for you to die；’ she whispered in the icy silence。 ‘Right now。’
William Mosle crumpled forward； against her boots； and thrashed in racking convulsions。 After a few long； agonizing seconds； he was still； his last breath rattling from his lungs。
Kahlan’s gaze slid over a wide…eyed Captain Ryan； to Prin…din； standing behind a still ashen Lieutenant Hobson。 Chan…dalen was glaring at him； too。 She spoke in his tongue。
‘Prindin； I told you to make sure they were all killed。 Why did you not do as I said？’
He shrugged self…consciously。 ‘They were of a mind to do this。 Captain Ryan told them to kill the others but to bring this one to you。 I did not know this when we left； or I would have told you。 They had two hundred men on foot； and another one hundred on horses。 As I told you； they were of a mind to do this； and I did not think I would be able to prevent it； except by killing him myself； and then I realized they might kill me for doing it； and then I would not be able to be near you； to protect you。 Besides that； I knew you were right； and I thought it would do them good to learn a lesson。’
‘Did any escape？’
‘No。 I was a little surprised at how well they did the job。 They are good men。 They did a hard thing； a thing they wept to do； but they did it well。 None escaped them。’
Kahlan let out a long breath。 ‘I understand； Prindin。 You were right to do as you did。’ She cast a sideways glance at Chandalen。 ‘Chandalen will be satisfied； too。’ It was an order。
Prindin gave her a tight smile of relief。 Her glare slid to Captain Ryan。
‘Satisfied？’
He stood stiff； pale and wide…eyed。 ‘Yes； Mother Confessor。’
She swept a glance over the gathered men。 ‘Is everyone satisfied； now？’
There came from them all an uncoordinated； mumbled chorus of ‘Yes； Mother Confessor。’
If there had been some before who were not terrified of her； there were none now who were not。 The lot of them looked as if； were a twig to snap unexpectedly； they would bolt for the hills like frightened rabbits。 This was probably the first time most had seen magic； and it wasn’t wonderful； beautiful magic； but daunting； ugly magic。
‘Mother Confessor？’ Captain Ryan whispered。 His arm was still held out； frozen； the knife he had offered her still in his hand。 ‘What are you going to do to me for disobeying your orders？’
She looked to his bloodless face。 ‘Nothing。 This is your first day of being men in the war against the Order。 Most of you didn’t believe in the importance of what I had manded。 You have not fought in war before； and did not understand the need。 I will be satisfied that you have learned something from this； and leave it at that。’
Captain Ryan swallowed。 ‘Thank you； Mother Confessor。’ With a shaking hand he slid his knife back in its sheath。 ‘I grew up with him。’ He lifted the hand toward the body at her feet。 ‘We lived about a mile apart； on the same road。 We used to go hunting and fishing together all the time。 We helped each other with chores。 We always went to feast day in our best coats of the same color。 We always 。。。’
‘I’m sorry； Bradley。 There is nothing to ease the pain of betrayal； or loss； except time。 As I told you； war is not fair。 Were it not for the men of the Order making war； perhaps you would be fishing today； with your friend。 Blame the Order； and avenge him； too； with all the rest。’
He nodded。 ‘Mother Confessor？ What would you have done if you were wrong？ What would you have done if Mosle wasn’t going to the enemy？’
She regarded him until his gaze rose to meet hers。 ‘I probably would have taken that knife you offered； and killed you。’
She turned from his hollow expression and put a hand on the shoulder of the the man next to him。 ‘Lieutenant Hobson； I know you had a difficult task。 Prindin tells me you did it well。’
He looked near tears； but still managed to stiffen his back with pride。 She noticed that his beard hadn’t even started to grow in earnest yet。 Thank you； Mother Confessor。’
She looked around at the hundreds of men standing about； watching。 ‘I believe you all have work？’
As if they had just awakened； everyone began moving again； slowly at first； and then with accelerating urgency。
Hobson gave a salute of his fist to his heart and turned to other business。 The men who had brought Mosle lifted his body and carried it off。 Others went to Chandalen and the two brothers； asking for instructions。 Captain Ryan stood alone with her； watching as everyone went about their work。
Her legs felt limp and slack； like bowstrings left out in the rain all night。 For a Confessor to use her power when she was rested and alert was taxing。 To use it when she was already tired was perilously exhausting。 She could hardly keep herself upright。
She had been dead tired from riding all night to the enemy camp and back； to say nothing of the fight with them。 She needed more sleep than she had gotten； and using her power had cost her even the benefit of the short nap； and then some。 She had used what strength she had left to do something that should have been done without her。
She thought maybe it must be the cold； and traveling in such difficult conditions； but she seemed more tired than usual lately。 Maybe she could ask Prindin to make her some more tea。
‘Could I speak with you for a moment； Mother Confessor？’ Captain Ryan asked。
Kahlan nodded。 ‘What is it； Captain？’
He pushed his unbuttoned wool coat open； shoving his hands in his back pockets。 He glanced away to watch some men filling waterskins。 ‘I just want to say that I’m sorry。 I was wrong。’
‘It’s all right； Bradley。 He was your friend。 It’s difficult to believe ill of a friend。 I understand。’
‘No； that’s not it。 My father always told me that a man had to admit his mistakes before he could do right in this world。’
He shuffled his feet and looked around； finally bringing his blue eyes to her。 The mistake I made was believing that you wanted Mosle killed because he wouldn’t follow you。 I thought you were being spiteful because he didn’t want to follow you。 I made a mistake； and I’m sorry。 Sorry I thought that of you。 You were trying to protect us； even though you knew we would hate you for it。 Well； I don’t hate you。 I hope you don’t hate me。 I’m honored to follow you into this battle。 I hope that someday I’m half as wise as you； and have the guts you do； to use that wisdom。’
She released a quiet sigh。 ‘I’m hardly older than you； yet you make me feel like an old woman。 I’m relieved； you understand。 It’s a small pleasure in all this pain。 You’re a fine officer； and will do right by this world。’
He smiled。 ‘I’m glad we’re on good terms again。’
A man approached； and was waved forward by the captain。 ‘What is it； Sergeant Frost？’
Sergeant Frost gave a salute of his fist to his heart。 ‘We sent a few men out； and in an abandoned barn they found some crushed chalk and other things needed to make whitewash。 We have some wooden tubs we can mix it in。 You said you wanted it in something big。 They’re big enough to bathe in。’
‘How many of these tubs do you have？’ Kahlan asked。
‘A dozen； Mother Confessor。’
‘Put the tubs near each other； and pitch a tent around each。 Use the largest tents you have； even if it is the mand tents。 Make the whitewash with hot water； and place the heated stones inside the tents； to keep it as warm as possible inside。 Let me know when all this is seen to。’
Keeping his obvious questions to himself； the sergeant saluted and rushed off to see it done。
Captain Ryan gave her a curious frown。 ‘What do you want with whitewash？’
‘We’ve just gotten back on good terms； let’s not spoil it for a bit。 I’ll tell you after things are prepared。 Are the wagons ready？’
‘Should be。’
‘Then I must see to them。 Did you send the sentries and lookouts？’
‘First thing。’
As she walked through the camp to the wagons； men came to her constantly。 ‘The wagon wheels； Mother Confessor。 As we destroy things we should stave in the wheels’ and Their battle standards； shouldn’t we burn them； so they can’t rally their men around them？’ and ‘Couldn’t we set fire to their baggage； so if the weather turns colder they’ll freeze？’ and ‘If we were to throw manure in their barrels of drinking water； they would have to waste time melting snow；’ and a hundred other ideas； from the absurd to the worthwhile。 She listened to each with attention； giving her honest opinion； and； in a few cases； her orders to see it done。
Lieutenant Hobson came at a trot holding out a tin bowl。 That was the last thing she needed。
‘Mother Confessor！ I kept some stew hot for you！’
Beaming； he handed her the bowl as she walked。 She tried to act grateful。 He walked along next to her； watching； grinning。 She forced herself to take a spoonful； and to tell him how wonderful it tasted。 It was all she could do to keep that one spoonful down。
After using her power； a Confessor needed time to recover。 For some it was days； for her it took a couple of hours。 Rest； if she could get it； was the best thing for a Confessor after using her power。 The little rest she had gotten was now wasted。 She could get no more now； and probably would get none this night either。
The last thing a Confessor needed while recovering her power was food。 It diverted her energy to the food instead of returning her strength。 She had to think of a way out of eating the bowl of stew or it would end up on the ground； to the embarrassment of all。
Thankfully； she reached the wagons before she had to take another mouthful。 She asked Lieutenant Hobson to get Chandalen and the two brothers； and bring them to her。
After he left； she set the bowl down on the splinter bar of the dray with the casks of ale and climbed up。
She motioned Captain Ryan up on the wagon as she counted。 ‘Get some men。 Unload the top rows so we can get at them all。 Right the casks on the bottom row； and withdraw the plugs。’ As he motioned for men to help with the task； she asked； ‘Did Chandalen have you all make a troga？’
A troga was a simple； stout piece of cord or a wire with a wooden handle on each end； and long enough so that when it was given a twist； it made a loop that was the right size to drop over a man’s head。 It was applied from behind； and then the handles yanked apart。 If it was made of wire； placed correctly