on。 Volunteer at a refugee camp。 But at this point in time; we strongly discourage U。S。 citizens from attempting to adopt Afghan children。
I got up。 e on; Sohrab; I said in Farsi。 Sohrab slid next to me; rested his head on my hip。 I remembered the Polaroid of him and Hassan standing that same way。 Can I ask you some thing; Mr。 Andrews?
Yes。
Do you have children?
For the first time; he blinked。
Well; do you? It s a simple question。
He was silent。
I thought so; I said; taking Sohrab s hand。 They ought to put someone in your chair who knows what it s like to want a child。 I turned to go; Sohrab trailing me。
Can I ask you a question? Andrews called。
Go ahead。
Have you promised this child you ll take him with you?
What if I have?
He shook his head。 It s a dangerous business; making promises to kids。 He sighed and opened his desk drawer again。 You mean to pursue this? he said; rummaging through papers。
I mean to pursue this。
He produced a business card。 Then I advise you to get a good immigration lawyer。 Omar Faisal works here in Islamabad。 You can tell him I sent you。
I took the card from him。 Thanks; I muttered。
Good luck; he said。 As we exited the room; I glanced over my shoulder。 Andrews was standing in a rectangle of sunlight; absently staring out the window; his hands turning the potted tomato plants toward the sun; petting them lovingly。
TAKE CARE; the secretary said as we passed her desk。
Your boss could use some manners; I said。 I expected her to roll her eyes; maybe nod in that I know; everybody says that; kind of way。 Instead; she lowered her voice。 Poor Ray。 He hasn t been the same since his daughter died。
I raised an eyebrow。
Suicide; she whispered。
ON THE TAXI RIDE back to the hotel; Sohrab rested his head on the window; kept staring at the passing buildings; the rows of gum trees。 His breath fogged the glass; cleared; fogged it again。 I waited for him to ask me about the meeting but he didn t。
ON THE OTHER SIDE of the closed bathroom door the water was running。 Since the day we d checked into the hotel; Sohrab took a long bath every night before bed。 In Kabul; hot running water had been like fathers; a rare modity。 Now Sohrab spent almost an hour a night in the bath; soaking in the soapy water; scrubbing。 Sitting on the edge of the bed; I called Soraya。 I glanced at the thin line of light under the bathroom door。 Do you feel clean yet; Sohrab?
I passed on to Soraya what Raymond Andrews had told me。 So what do you think? I said。
We have to think he s wrong。 She told me she had called a few adoption agencies that arranged international adoptions。 She hadn t yet found one that would consider doing an Afghan adoption; but she was still looking。
How are your parents taking the news?
Madar is happy for us。 You know how she feels about you; Amir; you can do no wrong in her eyes。 Padar。。。 well; as always; he s a little harder to read。 He s not saying much。
And you? Are you happy?
I heard her shifting the receiver to her other hand。 I think we ll be good for your nephew; but maybe that little boy will be good for us too。
I was thinking the same thing。
I know it sounds crazy; but I find myself wondering what his favorite _qurma_ will be; or his favorite subject in school。 I picture myself helping him with homework。。。 She laughed。 In the bathroom; the water had stopped running。 I could hear Sohrab in there; shifting in the tub; spilling water over the sides。
You re going to be great; I said。
Oh; I almost forgot! I called Kaka Sharif。
I remembered him reciting a poem at our nika from a scrap of hotel stationery paper。 His son had held the Koran over our heads as Soraya and I had walked toward the stage; smiling at the flashing cameras。 What did he say?
Well; he s going to stir the pot for us。 He ll call some of his INS buddies; she said。
That s really great news; I said。 I can t wait for you to see Sohrab。
I can t wait to see you; she said。
I hung up smiling。
Sohrab emerged from the bathroom a few minutes later。 He had barely said a dozen words since the meeting with Raymond Andrews and my attempts at conversation had only met with a nod or a monosyllabic reply。 He climbed into bed; pulled the blanket to his chin。 Within minutes; he was snoring。
I wiped a circle on the fogged…up mirror and shaved with one of the hotel s old…fashioned razors; the type that opened and you slid the blade in。 Then I took my own bath; lay there until the steaming hot water turned cold and my skin shriveled up。 I lay there drifting; wondering; imagining。。。
OMAR FAISAL WAS CHUBBY; dark; had dimpled cheeks; black button eyes; and an affable; gap…toothed smile。 His thinning gray hair was tied back in a ponytail。 He wore a brown corduroy suit with leather elbow patches and carried a worn; overstuffed briefcase。 The handle was missing; so he clutched the briefcase to his chest。 He was the sort of fellow who started a lot of sentences with a laugh and an unnecessary apology; like I m sorry; I ll be there at five。 Laugh。 When I had called him; he had insisted on ing out to meet us。 I m sorry; the cabbies in this town are sharks; he said in perfect English; without a trace of an accent。 They smell a foreigner; they triple their fares。
He pushed through the door; all smiles and apologies; wheezing a little and sweating。 He wiped his brow with a handkerchief and opened his briefcase; rummaged in it for a notepad and apologized for the sheets of paper that spilled on the bed。 Sitting crosslegged on his bed; Sohrab kept one eye on the muted television; the other on the harried lawyer。 I had told