hammad； who owned a kabob house in Shar…e…Nau； came to the house with his bags of spices。 Like the butcher； Del…Muhammad……or Dello； as Baba called him……refused payment for his services。 He said Baba had done enough for
his family already。 It was Rahim Khan who whispered to me； as Dello marinated the meat； that Baba had lent Dello the money to open his restaurant。 Baba had refused repayment until Dello had shown up one day in our driveway in a Benz and insisted he wouldn t leave until Baba took his money。
I guess in most ways； or at least in the ways in which parties are judged； my birthday bash was a huge success。 I d never seen the house so packed。 Guests with drinks in hand were chatting in the hallways； smoking on the stairs； leaning against doorways。 They sat where they found space； on kitchen counters； in the foyer； even under the stairwell。 In the backyard； they mingled under the glow of blue； red； and green lights winking in the trees； their faces illuminated by the light of kerosene torches propped everywhere。 Baba had had a stage built on the balcony that overlooked the garden and planted speakers throughout the yard。 Ahmad Zahir was playing an accordion and singing on the stage over masses of dancing bodies。
I had to greet each of the guests personally……Baba made sure of that； no one was going to gossip the next day about how he d raised a son with no manners。 I kissed hundreds of cheeks； hugged total strangers； thanked them for their gifts。 My face ached from the strain of my plastered smile。
I was standing with Baba in the yard near the bar when someone said； Happy birthday； Amir。 It was Assef； with his parents。 Assef s father； Mahmood； was a short； lanky sort with dark skin and a narrow face。 His mother； Tanya； was a small； nervous woman who smiled and blinked a lot。 Assef was standing between the two of them now； grinning； looming over both； his arms resting on their shoulders。 He led them toward us； like he had brought them here。 Like he was the parent； and they his children。 A wave of dizziness rushed through me。 Baba thanked them for ing。
I picked out your present myself； Assef said。 Tanya s face twitched and her eyes flicked from Assef to me。 She smiled； unconvincingly； and blinked。 I wondered if Baba had noticed。
Still playing soccer； Assef jan？ Baba said。 He d always wanted me to be friends with Assef。
Assef smiled。 It was creepy how genuinely sweet he made it look。 Of course； Kaka jan。
Right wing； as I recall？
Actually； I switched to center forward this year； Assef said。 You get to score more that way。 We re playing the Mekro…Rayan team next week。 Should be a good match。 They have some good players。
Baba nodded。 You know； I played center forward too when I was young。
I ll bet you still could if you wanted to； Assef said。 He favored Baba with a good…natured wink。
Baba returned the wink。 I see your father has taught you his world…famous flattering ways。 He elbowed Assef s father； almost knocked the little fellow down。 Mahmood s laughter was about as convincing as Tanya s smile； and suddenly I wondered if maybe； on some level； their son frightened them。 I tried to fake a smile； but all I could manage was a feeble upturning of the corners of my mouth……my stomach was turning at the sight of my father bonding with Assef。
Assef shifted his eyes to me。 Wali and Kamal are here too。 They wouldn t miss your birthday for anything； he said； laughter lurking just beneath the surface。 I nodded silently。
We re thinking about playing a little game of volleyball tomorrow at my house； Assef said。 Maybe you ll join us。 Bring Hassan if you want to。
That sounds fun； Baba said； beaming。 What do you think； Amir？
I don t really like volleyball； I muttered。 I saw the light wink out of Baba s eyes and an unfortable silence followed。
Sorry； Assefjan； Baba said； shrugging。 That stung； his apologizing for me。
Nay； no harm done； Assef said。 But you have an open invitation； Amir jan。 Anyway； I heard you like to read so I brought you a book。 One of my favorites。 He extended a wrapped birthday gift to me。 Happy birthday。
He was dressed in a cotton shirt and blue slacks； a red silk tie and shiny black loafers。 He smelled of cologne and his blond hair was neatly bed back。 On the surface； he was the embodiment of every parent s dream； a strong； tall； well…dressed and well…mannered boy with talent and striking looks； not to mention the wit to joke with an adult。 But to me； his eyes betrayed him。 When I looked into them； the facade faltered； revealed a glimpse of the madness hiding behind them。
Aren t you going to take it； Amir？ Baba was saying。 Huh？
Your present； he said testily。 Assefjan is giving you a present。
Oh； I said。 I took the box from Assef and lowered my gaze。 I wished I could be alone in my room； with my books； away from these people。
Well？ Baba said。
What？
Baba spoke in a low voice； the one he took on whenever I embarrassed him in public。 Aren t you going to thank Assef jan？ That was very considerate of him。
I wished Baba would stop calling him that。 How often did he call me Amir jan ？ Thanks； I said。 Assef s mother looked at me like she wanted to say something； but she didn t； and I realized that neither of Assef s parents had said a word。 Before I could embarrass myself and Baba anymore……but mostly to get away from Assef and his grin……I stepped away。 Thanks for ing； I said。
I squirmed my way through the throng of guests and slipped through the wrought…iron gates。 Two houses down from our house； there was a large； barren dirt lot。 I d heard Baba tell Rahim Khan that a judge had bought the land